Hi friends,,

Well.. I guess ill just go back to my online diary. I have been so much busy here in the US. There is alot of things that needs to be adjust. Also im still not feeling so well.. Just 2 weeks ago my health care provider did some blood test and the result is just normal. What in the world is the matter with me? I feel so light headed, tired, sleepy, tonsils and nose are little bit inflammed, they look really red, i have earache sometimes.. and plus, my brain wouldn't rest in night time for it will dream every single night!! Im sooo tired of it.. Last week I took Melatonin hoping that it will help relax my brain while I am sleeping but still not helping. I used it everynight for 3 nights.. So I quit it for it not helping.
Anways, my health care provider told me that Im just stress. Then the inflammed nose are just allergy, also regarding the tonsils are just normal for they have to be soft just like mine right now. But Im still not satisfied of what she told me. I know Im achy, but why no doctor can tell me what's wrong? Also my ENT just said that they are little bit inflammed but he dont see no infection.. Gggggrrrr.....im so tired of going to the doctors oi!!! because its not helping any plus they are sooo expensive.. Since I got here i have been to the doctor around 5 or 6 times.. im tired of it.. But I understand that I have Cholesteatoma which needs to be removed.. Oh God!! But that is not my main concern right now.. I want to go back to normal first. I want to be able to sleep at night with no dreams, my tiredness, sleepiness and being light headed will go away first before I'll proceed to ear surgery. Im soo tired of telling my husband that I feel this and that.. Sometimes he just dont believe me for its too much... But im not loosing hope, I'll keep taking this herbs which I think that might can help all this achy feelings.. But of course pray everynight and morning too.