I'm little bit guilty

My husband's pick up truck needed some repairs because we met slight accident last July 2. This morning he asked me to drive the car to Steves Auto Shop either ill follow him or be ahead of him. So I choosed to be ahead of him because I'll panic if somebody's behind me and wants to pass me. Then when we were on the road, I realized that I'm not sure where's Steve's Auto Shop at although I have been there few times but this time its gonna be little different because im driving and have to look for the building. So, I was looking for my cellphone which I thought I put close to me but I couldn't find. I kept on driving while my other hand is finding my cellphone. I took a quick look in my purse and it wasn't there. I was gonna call my husband and tell him to go ahead and passed me when he get a chance so that he can lead to the auto shop since I wasn't sure where it's at.
When we get to town I thought I saw the the auto shop building but I wasn't really sure because there was a Semi Truck on the way. When I looked back to my husband's pick up he had his turn signal on to that road where the building is at but I didn't have enough time to turn. So, I drove ahead and dont know where to go for im not familiar with the road. Thank God my husband passed me and I followed him. So he stopped on a stop sign and then drove ahead then when it was my turned to stop on a stop sign I stopped and I could see the red pick up truck coming and he had his right turn signal on so first thing came to my mine that he will make a right turn on the road where I was on. So, I softly stepped on gas and came to find out that the guy in a red pick up had to step on his break for I pulled in front of him because I thought he was gonna turn on the road I was on since he had his right turn signal. I was really guilty because I shouldn't done that according to my husband. But, everything was good besides that. He thinks that Im ready to get an American Driver's License since I only have Philippine Driver's License. And I think im getting comfortable to drive by myself in town. But for now I dont look forward to drive by myself in town again. But someday... in God's willing!!!

Summer Vacation

Im soo excited going to Alaska to see my Sister-in-Law, her husband and maybe some of her family. Also Im soo excited going to fish. I really miss fishing. When I was just little girl back in our Island in Bohol me and my friends used to fish in fishponds. I really enjoyed it. And it has been so many years that I didn't go fishing. But here is gonna be a little different because we are not going to fish in fishpond. Hopefully, we are going out in the ocean to catch bigger fish, since hubby told me that we will just stay along the lake I think..... I dont know but he also mention that we might go out in the ocean... thats gonna be so cool and exciting. Well, soon we will see. This thursday is our flight going to Alaska and will be home the 28th of this month. And for that long I hope that there is gonna be internet connection over there so that I can still talk to my family and friends online.

Peanut Allergy

Last friday, before we went to the cabin me and my husband ate peanuts at home. I really liked the peanut. Until by that afternoon while we where heading to the cabin I started feeling ichy. And im thinking of anything I ate that is salty because in the Philippines everytime I ate salty foods it caused the itching. But that day I couldn't remember of any salty foods I ate and I was thinking about maybe peanut causes this itchyness but that cant be because I have been eating any kinds of peanuts in the Philippines. But thats the only food I can think causes my itchyness. Untill today I still feel itchy but I will not scratch myself really hard it might leave ugly looking spots. Hope that this will go away soon.

Anxiety Caused by Homesick?

I think anxiety attacks me everynow and then which is soo terrible. At first, it feels like im scared, then my heart start pound really really fast then I would feel like im gonna past out and I feel worst. My whole body would shake so bad and sometimes I'd do it on purpose to entertain my mine.. The last attact was just last sunday night, I got really scared. And im blaming this of being homesick because if im not doing anything I think about home home, and how it is here in the US. It is not easy being away from family and home, eventhough I have new family here but still alot of things makes me homesick.. First of all is being soo quite here where I live, kinda far away from neighbors. I cant hear my neices and nephews giggles, cry, fight, or any kinds of noise from my family that I used to hear.. I cant see very many people here walking down the street which I see alot at home. If I get bored there ill just walk to my neighbors house or friends house or I go wherever I go that can entertain the bored mine.. It is just easy at home to go around, friends and family are just close by. Eventhough it is better here in the US for comfort but still cant buy my homesickness.. Im just soo close to my family and friends over there.. HUH!!! Nganung ni enter? but im not regreating being here either because im with the man who really loves me. In fact, I feel so lucky to have him in my life. He gives me his very best love which I really appreciate, he may be goofy being a teaser but he is really great to me. So, I just have to do my best to adopt here totally because this is my second home, and hopefully I can do it very soon cause it soo hard being in my situation which is bad because it caused me have anxiety sometimes,and ill do my best to avoid thinking sad things that can worry me.

Doctor's Appointment

We just got home from Spokane, they checked me up again and did all this test for cholesteatoma... Then I talked to the Doctor that will do my ear surgery. There at the clinic, he performed like ear cleaning and oh, I didn't like it at all it really made me dizzy, I mean the whole room just spinned for few minutes, I told the doctor that I think im gonna past out and he said no.. But it was just so terrible im already light headed but after he cleaned my ear the worst dizziness I experienced..
We talked about the surgery and I told everybody there that im sooo scared coz this is my first time.. but everybody said I dont have to be scared coz I got a very very good Doctor, he is like the best surgeon in Northwest is he highly respected.. and I have heard that from many people.. So I guess he is good then, but still scary you know.. This August 6 is the scheduled date for my surgery, and it will take around 1 and 1/2 to 2 hrs operation, and if God willing ill come home at the same day since this is an out patient thing. Hope that God will be with me and Im always praying that He will be with me everytime not only on my surgery day but everytime.
It's pretty scary but this is something that needs to be done or else it could lead to complications. Oh well, I have strong faith of God and I know He is always there listening to His people's prayer...